Wow What a Weekend! Tantric Healing
This past weekend I attended Charles Muir's Beginner Tantra course. This was different for me because I never before pictured myself in Charles' course. I had heard stories about him sleeping with students and all sorts of other gossip in the Tantra world so I was just never gonna be a participant in his work.
Then, when Charles and Leah, his fiancee scheduled a course in New York City, I was invited by two people I love and respect totally Dr. Judy Kuriansky and teeni dakini. How could I refuse? The thing that really turned me around though was when I interviewed Charles on my internet radio show Tantra Cafe. What a great show we did and I was so moved by his sharing on the show. I decided to press the red button and go for it.
Well, the course was a blast and very juicy - very red Tantra!
I laughed and cried in some of the sharing and processes (although there were not too many processes). Charles' style is more lecture than I have experienced in Tantra before, yet very entertaining and very informative. I learned little nuances about things that greatly increased my knowledge of Tantra. And he is certainly a master of Tantra and Hatha yoga. At 69 years of age, he is as limber as a youngster. Good show!
Now as to how my life transformed, whoa baby! The homework for the second evening for the couples and singles in the class is to have the men (Shivas) perform shamanic yoni healing on a female partner (Shakti). I already knew this going into the course and I was determined to have a really positive experience for myself. Rather than select a partner from the single men available in the course, I invited one of my Shiva students to attend the course with me and told him of the homework asking him if he was up to doing this process with me. He said YES, he would be honored. I wanted to feel that I was doing this intimate assignment with a man who I could trust and feel safe with as well as one who had been trained by me (and teeni).
As it turns out, another of my Shiva students decided to attend at the last moment and joined us in the course. He is also someone I have a very close relationship with teacher-student and friendship.
When it came time to choose the Shiva to accompany me to my space in NYC, I chose them both believing that the two of them would provide the exact amount of healing I desired and needed. I am so glad I did this and so were they. It took the nervousness and performance anxiety off the assignment for each of them to have the other available. They know I have big energy and now they could relax into the flow of the evening.
So we went to my place. We stopped for some food and wine. We shared our desires for the process, our fears and our intentions. We were all a bit nervous, but we got through it. Each of us showered and then we created a temple in the bedroom.
I got on the bed and they gave me a sensual massage. Then I said it would be okay to start the process. Shaman H asked me if I was willing to forgive and forget anyone and anything that had violated me in my life including me. I answered affirmatively. He then warmed his hands and put them on my heart. Shaman O stroked my genitals and warmed me up in the 2nd Chakra getting my juices flowing while I sang "Light My Fire" by the Doors. Then he inserted his forefinger into my yoni (vagina) and found my sacred spot. With just a little bit of jiggling around or pressing (I have no idea which), I instantly got in touch with the memory of the experience of having been burned at the stake. I cried and yelled a lot. Shaman H held me and said, "It wasn't your fault. They didn't get who you were. Let it go." That was the perfect thing to say.
Once I was done with this process, we began again next round. With a little more jiggling of the sacred spot, I became aware of an early memory of my father that I thought I had dealt with and completed years ago in the EST training. Some of you will laugh while reading this if you were around Landmark Education when I used to use this as one of my shares while leading introductions. When I was three and a half years old my mother was just back from the hospital taking care of my new infant sister in another room. My father was in charge of and feeding me porrage and orange juice in my highchair. I was a very demanding little girl (no surprise here) and I wanted him to strain the pulp out of the juice. I started crying and stamping saying to him, "Mommy would do it for me. I don't like orange juice with pulp." The scene ended with my father throwing the glass of orange juice over my head and walking out the door saying, "I'm done. I won't do this again."
So deep inside me was living the memory of this incident. From this I got the biggest 'aha' as I cried and released it. Here's the breakthrough: I have been very straight in most all situations in my life with speaking my truth, what I want and don't want when it comes to friends and business, but with the men in my life, I have not been quite as honest - afraid to say what I really want, what I really really want because unbeknownst to me, I held deep in myself the expectation that the men would throw something over my head and walk out the door.
WOW WOW WOW!
When that flew out of me, these two Shiva Shamans held me and stroked my body as I cried and cried. I said, "I had no idea that was still inside me! I am so greatful that it came out and I can be done with it. Thank you so much Shivas."
They held me and said, "We are so honored to be in this process with you. We love you so much. We want to give back. You are our teacher. You deserve love and deserve this healing."
Oh, I cried and let it all in and out.
Then we started our next round. We switched positions. Shiva O exchanged places with Shiva H. Shiva O stationed himself at my head while Shiva H went to my loins because I asked him to. He reached inside me and began to stroke and grope. All of a sudden he touched on a space that had me go wild. I screamed and cried and shifted energy from side to side until I caught his attention. I must have screamed into a pillow well beyond the normal yelling during orgasm. I really had to let go. I had an amazing series of orgasms and releases under his skilled fingers. I am only aware of screaming into a pillow so that the neighbors would not hear. I screamed my guts out beyond the beyond.
I went into class the next day and shared the intimate details. I am grateful. I really am. I moved beyond my limits and into a new space. I feel free expanded and open beyond anything I have ever known.
Thank you Shivas.
Thank you Charles & Leah.
Thank you teeni and Judy.
Thank you all for going there.
Love & Gratitude,
Laurie
Then, when Charles and Leah, his fiancee scheduled a course in New York City, I was invited by two people I love and respect totally Dr. Judy Kuriansky and teeni dakini. How could I refuse? The thing that really turned me around though was when I interviewed Charles on my internet radio show Tantra Cafe. What a great show we did and I was so moved by his sharing on the show. I decided to press the red button and go for it.
Well, the course was a blast and very juicy - very red Tantra!
I laughed and cried in some of the sharing and processes (although there were not too many processes). Charles' style is more lecture than I have experienced in Tantra before, yet very entertaining and very informative. I learned little nuances about things that greatly increased my knowledge of Tantra. And he is certainly a master of Tantra and Hatha yoga. At 69 years of age, he is as limber as a youngster. Good show!
Now as to how my life transformed, whoa baby! The homework for the second evening for the couples and singles in the class is to have the men (Shivas) perform shamanic yoni healing on a female partner (Shakti). I already knew this going into the course and I was determined to have a really positive experience for myself. Rather than select a partner from the single men available in the course, I invited one of my Shiva students to attend the course with me and told him of the homework asking him if he was up to doing this process with me. He said YES, he would be honored. I wanted to feel that I was doing this intimate assignment with a man who I could trust and feel safe with as well as one who had been trained by me (and teeni).
As it turns out, another of my Shiva students decided to attend at the last moment and joined us in the course. He is also someone I have a very close relationship with teacher-student and friendship.
When it came time to choose the Shiva to accompany me to my space in NYC, I chose them both believing that the two of them would provide the exact amount of healing I desired and needed. I am so glad I did this and so were they. It took the nervousness and performance anxiety off the assignment for each of them to have the other available. They know I have big energy and now they could relax into the flow of the evening.
So we went to my place. We stopped for some food and wine. We shared our desires for the process, our fears and our intentions. We were all a bit nervous, but we got through it. Each of us showered and then we created a temple in the bedroom.
I got on the bed and they gave me a sensual massage. Then I said it would be okay to start the process. Shaman H asked me if I was willing to forgive and forget anyone and anything that had violated me in my life including me. I answered affirmatively. He then warmed his hands and put them on my heart. Shaman O stroked my genitals and warmed me up in the 2nd Chakra getting my juices flowing while I sang "Light My Fire" by the Doors. Then he inserted his forefinger into my yoni (vagina) and found my sacred spot. With just a little bit of jiggling around or pressing (I have no idea which), I instantly got in touch with the memory of the experience of having been burned at the stake. I cried and yelled a lot. Shaman H held me and said, "It wasn't your fault. They didn't get who you were. Let it go." That was the perfect thing to say.
Once I was done with this process, we began again next round. With a little more jiggling of the sacred spot, I became aware of an early memory of my father that I thought I had dealt with and completed years ago in the EST training. Some of you will laugh while reading this if you were around Landmark Education when I used to use this as one of my shares while leading introductions. When I was three and a half years old my mother was just back from the hospital taking care of my new infant sister in another room. My father was in charge of and feeding me porrage and orange juice in my highchair. I was a very demanding little girl (no surprise here) and I wanted him to strain the pulp out of the juice. I started crying and stamping saying to him, "Mommy would do it for me. I don't like orange juice with pulp." The scene ended with my father throwing the glass of orange juice over my head and walking out the door saying, "I'm done. I won't do this again."
So deep inside me was living the memory of this incident. From this I got the biggest 'aha' as I cried and released it. Here's the breakthrough: I have been very straight in most all situations in my life with speaking my truth, what I want and don't want when it comes to friends and business, but with the men in my life, I have not been quite as honest - afraid to say what I really want, what I really really want because unbeknownst to me, I held deep in myself the expectation that the men would throw something over my head and walk out the door.
WOW WOW WOW!
When that flew out of me, these two Shiva Shamans held me and stroked my body as I cried and cried. I said, "I had no idea that was still inside me! I am so greatful that it came out and I can be done with it. Thank you so much Shivas."
They held me and said, "We are so honored to be in this process with you. We love you so much. We want to give back. You are our teacher. You deserve love and deserve this healing."
Oh, I cried and let it all in and out.
Then we started our next round. We switched positions. Shiva O exchanged places with Shiva H. Shiva O stationed himself at my head while Shiva H went to my loins because I asked him to. He reached inside me and began to stroke and grope. All of a sudden he touched on a space that had me go wild. I screamed and cried and shifted energy from side to side until I caught his attention. I must have screamed into a pillow well beyond the normal yelling during orgasm. I really had to let go. I had an amazing series of orgasms and releases under his skilled fingers. I am only aware of screaming into a pillow so that the neighbors would not hear. I screamed my guts out beyond the beyond.
I went into class the next day and shared the intimate details. I am grateful. I really am. I moved beyond my limits and into a new space. I feel free expanded and open beyond anything I have ever known.
Thank you Shivas.
Thank you Charles & Leah.
Thank you teeni and Judy.
Thank you all for going there.
Love & Gratitude,
Laurie
Labels: Charles Muir, Goddess Spot, Love, Sacred Spot, Shaman, Tantra, Tantra Cafe, Tantric Healing
