Wasn't Meant to Be
Yesterday, I created a long post for this blog and just as I was almost done, the power went out here. Welcome to my Indian world! Oh well. It just wasn't mean to be. So much has happened since, where to begin?
I'll give most of what I tried to convey yesterday and then see where I'm at. It's worth sharing. Here goes:
I thought I would get up in time to attend Osho's Dynamic Meditation (done everyday from 6-7 am). Not. When my alarm went off, I felt that I had only slept an hour still recovering from the cold. By the way, I never did make it to Latino Zen, so I'm just gonna make up what it was all about. Maybe I'll create one at the next TranscenDance we do in the DC area March 30th. A little salsa, a little tango, a litle merengue, a little meditation in between - Bailar OM!
Well, then when I woke up around 8am, I thought, okay, I'll do some housekeeping things. So, I went to open a safe deposit box in which to put my passport, my money, plane tix etc. Well first I went to the bank at the ashram. I wanted to get out approximately $600 hopefully to last me the rest of my stay in India. The bank only had denominations of 100 R's. So, when I walked out of there, I looked like Bonnie of Bonnie and Clyde! I could have filled part of a suitcase. Then I found out the safe deposit boxes are these little pouch/portfolio type things with a string that wraps around a button. This cracked me up. How could I possibly fit everything in there that I needed to put in? So, I went back to the bank and begged for bigger bills. I put in as much as the pouch would hold. My friend Hetta from Denmark attempted to put all her belongs in since the only things she had were her important papers. Her luggage has been missing since she arrived in India a few days ago. needless to say all her worldly things did not fit!
This reminds me of the first time we did an Ecstasy course in Puerto Morelos, Mexico at Rancho Libertad. The owner only wanted to be paid in American cash. Try 25 people staying for one week or more to the tune of American bills. She (Ginny) said, "Don't worry, you can put ALL that cash in our safe deposit box." Again I felt like I had robbed a bank. And, yes, there was a box in the front office that had a key and a combination, but the whole thing could have been carried away on foot by anyone walking. I imagine it floated or blew away in the recent Katrina devastation of Cancun. Glad my money wasn't in there.
Okay, back to India. After the housekeeping, I decided to go to Vipassana Mediation. The facilitator said that we were to sit closed eyed for 45 minutes and then open eyes and sit quietly, no coughing or sneezing or sniffling. She said if we have to make any movement, make it with awareness. I figured I was better by this time so I went for it. After 25 minutes, a cough came into my throat. Where it came from, who knows? I tried to stiffle it by touching my throat. Then it swelled into my nose. Now I didn't know if I was going to cough or sneeze. I held my nose. Tears began to stream down my face as I held my hands to my throat and my nose and tried to keep from making a sound. Then my body began spontaneously shaking out of control (You know the "Shakti Wave" that we teach at Initiation!) and the kundalini was just rising on up. I must have looked very funny. And then I coughed and sniffled and teared beyond any semblance of control. I GOT KICKED OUT OF THE AUDITORIUM!
It's a good thing this isn't school because we could say I flunked the first course.
Feeling amused and a little ruffled (like I'm the only one they've ever kicked out), I walked over to what's called Buddha Grove and saw people doing dancing meditation so I jumped up there and let it all hang out. It's a free wheeling dance party that happens three times a day in between everything else with great world music, fabulous beats and plenty of room to really rock. There are no partners - just a lot of great dancers moving through space (all dressed in maroon, red, magenta, wine, cranberry - very beautiful). In another blog, I'll comment about the whole dress code and other stuff here.
After lunch, I decided to try Osho's Kundalini Meditation. I lucked out here. You can make noise. So, it resembles the "wave". You stand and wave with eyes closed for 15 minutes to music. (I don't think Harvey Shugarman is reading this blog, but if he was, he'd know that this meditation is for him! If anyone has his current email, please pass this along that I was mentioning him and thinking of him.) Then the second 15 minutes is dancing full out in place. Then next 15 minutes is a choice to either stand or sit quietly eyes closed to music. The final 15 minutes is to sit in absolute quiet with no music.
Yeah, I made it through that whole experience without a cough or sniffle. Plus I was pretty much in the witness the whole time; not a lot of mind chatter. It felt very good to me.
Then I went for my facial that I mentioned earlier, had a bite to eat and went back to my room for the night determined to rest enough to make it through more exercises today.
And so it goes. I'll try to get the next installment on here later this evening. If not, tomorrow morning for sure. I had the most amazing experience already today with spinning.
Much love to you all,
Laurie
P.S. One person has already communicated being interested in coming back here with me. Yeah baby! I will take ten people only. So, if you're even thinking about it let me know. This is a definite thing in my mind. I'll come back here with or without you, but with you would really be fun!
P.P.S. Many of you have written separate emails to me commenting about your experiences reading this. Unless you have something very private to say, it's completely alright to write a comment right here. Just wanted you to know. If you comment, others might comment back to you and then we can have a lively conversation if you like. Also, please feel free to send this blog to others you know who may not know me, but would be interested in taking a Tantra course from me or finding out about my travels in India. Kate posted about this blog on a few Tantra websites and egroups and some people from those groups whom I don't know have posted and written to me. This is a great world filled with so many possibilities. Let's share, okay?
I'll give most of what I tried to convey yesterday and then see where I'm at. It's worth sharing. Here goes:
I thought I would get up in time to attend Osho's Dynamic Meditation (done everyday from 6-7 am). Not. When my alarm went off, I felt that I had only slept an hour still recovering from the cold. By the way, I never did make it to Latino Zen, so I'm just gonna make up what it was all about. Maybe I'll create one at the next TranscenDance we do in the DC area March 30th. A little salsa, a little tango, a litle merengue, a little meditation in between - Bailar OM!
Well, then when I woke up around 8am, I thought, okay, I'll do some housekeeping things. So, I went to open a safe deposit box in which to put my passport, my money, plane tix etc. Well first I went to the bank at the ashram. I wanted to get out approximately $600 hopefully to last me the rest of my stay in India. The bank only had denominations of 100 R's. So, when I walked out of there, I looked like Bonnie of Bonnie and Clyde! I could have filled part of a suitcase. Then I found out the safe deposit boxes are these little pouch/portfolio type things with a string that wraps around a button. This cracked me up. How could I possibly fit everything in there that I needed to put in? So, I went back to the bank and begged for bigger bills. I put in as much as the pouch would hold. My friend Hetta from Denmark attempted to put all her belongs in since the only things she had were her important papers. Her luggage has been missing since she arrived in India a few days ago. needless to say all her worldly things did not fit!
This reminds me of the first time we did an Ecstasy course in Puerto Morelos, Mexico at Rancho Libertad. The owner only wanted to be paid in American cash. Try 25 people staying for one week or more to the tune of American bills. She (Ginny) said, "Don't worry, you can put ALL that cash in our safe deposit box." Again I felt like I had robbed a bank. And, yes, there was a box in the front office that had a key and a combination, but the whole thing could have been carried away on foot by anyone walking. I imagine it floated or blew away in the recent Katrina devastation of Cancun. Glad my money wasn't in there.
Okay, back to India. After the housekeeping, I decided to go to Vipassana Mediation. The facilitator said that we were to sit closed eyed for 45 minutes and then open eyes and sit quietly, no coughing or sneezing or sniffling. She said if we have to make any movement, make it with awareness. I figured I was better by this time so I went for it. After 25 minutes, a cough came into my throat. Where it came from, who knows? I tried to stiffle it by touching my throat. Then it swelled into my nose. Now I didn't know if I was going to cough or sneeze. I held my nose. Tears began to stream down my face as I held my hands to my throat and my nose and tried to keep from making a sound. Then my body began spontaneously shaking out of control (You know the "Shakti Wave" that we teach at Initiation!) and the kundalini was just rising on up. I must have looked very funny. And then I coughed and sniffled and teared beyond any semblance of control. I GOT KICKED OUT OF THE AUDITORIUM!
It's a good thing this isn't school because we could say I flunked the first course.
Feeling amused and a little ruffled (like I'm the only one they've ever kicked out), I walked over to what's called Buddha Grove and saw people doing dancing meditation so I jumped up there and let it all hang out. It's a free wheeling dance party that happens three times a day in between everything else with great world music, fabulous beats and plenty of room to really rock. There are no partners - just a lot of great dancers moving through space (all dressed in maroon, red, magenta, wine, cranberry - very beautiful). In another blog, I'll comment about the whole dress code and other stuff here.
After lunch, I decided to try Osho's Kundalini Meditation. I lucked out here. You can make noise. So, it resembles the "wave". You stand and wave with eyes closed for 15 minutes to music. (I don't think Harvey Shugarman is reading this blog, but if he was, he'd know that this meditation is for him! If anyone has his current email, please pass this along that I was mentioning him and thinking of him.) Then the second 15 minutes is dancing full out in place. Then next 15 minutes is a choice to either stand or sit quietly eyes closed to music. The final 15 minutes is to sit in absolute quiet with no music.
Yeah, I made it through that whole experience without a cough or sniffle. Plus I was pretty much in the witness the whole time; not a lot of mind chatter. It felt very good to me.
Then I went for my facial that I mentioned earlier, had a bite to eat and went back to my room for the night determined to rest enough to make it through more exercises today.
And so it goes. I'll try to get the next installment on here later this evening. If not, tomorrow morning for sure. I had the most amazing experience already today with spinning.
Much love to you all,
Laurie
P.S. One person has already communicated being interested in coming back here with me. Yeah baby! I will take ten people only. So, if you're even thinking about it let me know. This is a definite thing in my mind. I'll come back here with or without you, but with you would really be fun!
P.P.S. Many of you have written separate emails to me commenting about your experiences reading this. Unless you have something very private to say, it's completely alright to write a comment right here. Just wanted you to know. If you comment, others might comment back to you and then we can have a lively conversation if you like. Also, please feel free to send this blog to others you know who may not know me, but would be interested in taking a Tantra course from me or finding out about my travels in India. Kate posted about this blog on a few Tantra websites and egroups and some people from those groups whom I don't know have posted and written to me. This is a great world filled with so many possibilities. Let's share, okay?
posted by Latihan at 3:34 AM
1 Comments:
hi laurie...did you receive a message from me...?
am new at this & typed a note to you...not sure if is went thru :>)
marchia
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